~moments~

well..today topic is…driving lesson..lol
erm..is really kindda embarassing to write on here…among my form5 frens..i guess i’m the last one taking it…(aiyo..so shameful..lol)
but..anyway..jz wanna share it wit u guys^^

1st driving lesson(13/5 tuesday)
you know wad…i forget everything bout driving…
even how many paddles are there for a car..and which is for the brake and the oil..
i completely forgotten..XD
but anyway..i jz cling onto my life…give courage to myself and go for it…
erm…tht sensei giv me a 5 minute lecture 1st..
den after tht..he insist tht i drive…
i jz drive according to his instructions…
and…it stil turn out to be ok…

But when come to the parking..tiga penjure…bukit..stuff..
i totally screw up XD OMG
i hv a bad memory…so i couldn’t remember how to do it at all for tht 2 hrs..
(i jz do following his instruction..i think he’s rather annoy too for needing to repeat the same stuff to me=P…but wad to do…i hv short memory…LOL)

it is rather tiring for day one…
cz after the training..i directly go for tuition…
i fall asleep in tuition most of the time of course=P..lol

in short…i HATE day one…tough T.T…

2nd driving lesson(14/5 wed)
as preparation for day 2…
i keep on memorising the steps for the parking and etc at home…(don wanna screw up again tis time)
i was so glad n so PROUD of myself when i manage to memorise it at home…
i even cal my sis to watch me…doing those changing gear..turning stering actions..
"hehe~sensei sure praise me for today^^"is wad i’ve thought..

but u know wad…all my effort is waster..
== we didn’t even touch anything related to parking today…
cz is jalan raya practice…WAT THE *…

anyway..couldn’t do anything muc bout it..

two 2 hours pass faster than the day be4….
i enjoy it…
very exciting…cz i almost knock down a guy walking…and a car moving out from the side…lol…(tis is resulting due to i added the oil too muc "accidentally")
of course sensei is piss off…=Poops~

3rd driving lesson(15/5 thurs)
day three is bac to the parking n etc lesson…
tis time sensei let me do it myself…
in the beginning ..i really did do everything well…

but when come to the end…
== i SCREW UP once again….
don wan to say"wad the" also cant loo

when parking…i dunno why…
i loose control of the "class"
and i bang..making all the tiang at the back of the parking space to fall..
==….

haiz….sensei really mad at me…
screw up in the end when i suppose to make it perfect as i practice n times edi…

lol…but it is indeed fun…
cz it tells me…afterall..i really can drive^^

erm…hope i can pass for the JPJ test..
so tht i can fetch my frens in KL as promise…lol

4th lesson(coming soon~tis sunday)
hope i hv good news for u guys^^

=)

i’ve been living in alor star,my hometown for almost 18 yrs…
from the day i born…til today~
but why…even today..i wil stil feel the coldness among ppl…at the place where i stand now..

somehow…everyone jz seems to bother to do their own stuff without considering about others…
they are even too busy to reply ur greetings or jz to give a warm smile back as a reply..

i feel really depress about tis when i realize it at tuition today…
i wanted to do something…hoping tht everyone in class wil be friendly to each other…and are able to hang out wit each other well..
i’ve try…but i guess…it’s beyond my limit…

i wonder whether i’m also jz like one of them be4 i went studying in my previous college…
feeling so highly of myself..and didn’t even bother to care about the ppl beside me…

guess tht’s wad making it different between my college frens and secondary school frenZz…

however…things like tht is not something tht can be change in a day..isn’t it…

continue giving warmth to others…and i’m sure..they wil definitely feel it one day…
=)…

everyday…every moment…
i cant stop myself from looking at the time…
wondering what they are doing over there…

"will ktm be delay again today..
is their class starting soon..
who will be teaching for today’s class..
are they having fun learning in class…
what’s their homework n assignment for today..
uh oh…their class might ends by now…"

this are the questions which often appear in my mind…

i myself dunno why …i jz cant stop thinking and wondering…
T.T how i wish i could be there wit them…

wonder till when wil tis stop haunting me..

i’ve come bac to my hometown…
i use to enjoy coming bac home…
but…somehow or rather…tis time…i miss my second home_KL..

i miss my college friends who hv been with me for the past 4 months…
nvr a time in my life tht i wil thought to meet frens like them…
i’m really lucky i guess^^…

the more i miss them…the more lonely i felt…
really hope to study wit them once again..
having fun in class..and also being serious in our work n assignments together..

i realize tht i couldn’t live my life tht way…
of course i couldn’t help missing them…but i also hv to be tough…
stand up once again…and bravely facing the future ahead…

hence..today i decided to attend my 1st tuition in yr2008…
a maths tuition..taught by my fren’s dad…who is a very great teacher(very geng wan loo=) )
tht tuition centre situated jz not far away from my home..
i walk to there…(u might say it is a part of exercise=P)
At there…i met my secondary school frens(some of them seems shock to see me..=.=as if i’m a ghost)…but is nice to meet them too^^
well..i’ve miss 2 lesson for the tuition class…
kindda stress in the beginning…can’t really catch up…maybe too nervous..
and it’s been awhile since i touch maths..
so my brain functions slower than usual=.=…(guess my brain is very rusty for the moment…)
and..the bad news is…i got alotZz of homework from there…T.T…

when i walk bac home after tuition…
along the way…i was thinking…
well..my KL classmates hv also started their lesson since yesterday…
even though i’m not being wit them..
but at here..in my hometown…i’m also attending tuition n hv homeworks to do…
tis makes me feels like i’m stil being with them!!!don’t u think so?when they r having classes…i’m having tuition…together we r stil studying n learning…jz tht we r in diff places…tht makes sense doesn’t it^^lol…

hey..i really miss u guys…
to say the truth..not being wit u guys..makes me feel rather lonelyT.T…
but..i promise i wil be tough^^…don worry…
love u guys…muakx